|—||Spurgeon (via nonelikejesus)|
Emotions pouring like an almost empty bottle
My heart is screeching as the last drips are falling
I think I’ve had enough
Drank much of the poison that caused most of the trouble
Perhaps it’s time to be alone
And reap all the consequences that I’ve sown
Yet the only hope I cling on
is Christ who is forever in His throne
Let’s talk … :)
And maybe the reason why you’re still there
Is the mystery that keeps us hanging
And maybe you’ll always be there
Unless the truth unfolds our bearing
Please give me a clue
That you’ve stopped loving long before due
So that I may proceed to my life
And my heart could finally know what’s right
Why do we end up liking the ones who don’t even notice us? Why can’t we love those who do and have put up every effort to make us feel special? Sometimes, I get confused with my own kind. Haha. Or does this happen to guys as well? Perhaps.
Anyway, I’m not going to talk about love tonight because that’s too cliché. Besides, who am I to talk about romantic love? I’ve never even been in a real relationship anyway. I don’t really know if I’m happy or sad right now. I think it’s a mix of both. I am happy because I just got my honor scholarship granted. I am happy because today’s message at church was very encouraging as well as the worship. I am happy because I read the book of Proverbs today and it reminded me to apply wisdom and humility in my speech and actions. On the other hand, I am sad because I miss my family. I am sad because I miss the friends I used to hang out a lot with but haven’t had much time with them anymore because of school. I am sad because my good and close friend just broke up with her fiancé. I am sad because my Dad has Cancer and all I can think of is the thought that one day, God’s going to take him away from me. I get happy when I think of the happy things, then my brain pathetically reminds me of my sorrows. And then I get sad. Sometimes, depressed.
I am just waiting. And figuring things out. Seeking wisdom and understanding from God like what Proverbs 15:16 says, “Get wisdom- how much better it is than gold! And get understanding- it is preferable to silver. (I’m not going to explain further about this verse). I still have to equip myself for happier and sadder things to happen.
So please be patient with me. Let me learn new things. Allow me to change. Let me grow.
Bluebird Typewriter Poetry #21
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